Sunday, November 25, 2007
Very high appeal. Love is one of a kind. Very loyal. Great kisser. Very romantic. Most caring person you will ever meet! Entirely creative. Extremely random and proud of it. Freak. Spontaneous. Great at telling Stories. Not a Fighter, But will Knock your lights out if it comes down to it. Someone you should hold on to.
Sunday, September 09, 2007
When someone falls from the sky, you just don’t know. They could be a god, but they could be one of us. You just have to wait and see. Most of the time they’re just another mortal, and you just need to make sure they’re not too happy, not too fulfilled. Keep them in the dark so they don’t really know what’s going on. They might join some social cause, they might wreck someone’s self esteem, but they are essentially average and hopefully discontent.
Sometimes you get one that is just waiting for some sort of immortality. One that’s aware of us. That knows it didn’t have just another nightmare. That realizes the gravitas. That knows you’ve been watching it all day. It isn’t mediocre. It doesn’t get drunk and go to bed. It talks to THEM and crusades against us. Or if we work it out right, it destroys. It kills something, maybe even itself.
When that happens it’s a clear win. Then it’s just like us. Even better, it chose to be just like us. It’s completely responsible for it. But sometimes, it decides it hates us. That’s the wrong word. Everyone hates us, we hate us. It decides to fight us. It doesn’t acknowledge that we’re there, but we’re not ignored either. It hurts us, but doesn’t even revel in it. It becomes garish. It stays in the lights, but doesn’t fear the dark. It decides it’s some sort of god. Some of us refuse to admit it gets stronger but it does. It starts to know things like what we can’t do. It doesn’t let us tell it things. It knows we lie. Our tricks work well, but not against a demi-god.
We say i need more belief in us. i say we need to face facts. We need to find the Ones and conquer. Because it decides who wins: us or THEM.
Sunday, July 29, 2007
In my math class, instead of taking a final exam, we are doing a final project. This includes a 5 page paper and a 5-7 minute presentation for the class. My topic is aesthetics and math; ratios, Fibonacci, Vitruvius, Pi, Da Vinci, and the like. I have been reading books about such things but I am starting to get nervous. I don't know what my point is going to be, exactly. The book I was reading is suddenly very mathematical and I don't know what concepts I am supposed to be getting from it. And I have two other tests demanding my attention.
I am not freaking out, but I am very concerned.
Wednesday, July 25, 2007
1) I am highly neurotic and have a hard time being random. There is always a method to my madness.
2) Sometimes, I wish I were hot. I don't think I'm unattractive, but sometimes I wish I was bowl-you-over, knock-you-out, beautiful. Like maybe make guys scared a little.
3) Sometimes I really, really, really miss playing with toys.
4)Not that this may be actually surprising (and sorry if it's TMI, but you asked), I really love kissing and think it's so fun and think about it a lot.
5) I really have no desire to drive, ever. I think about taking lessons and going slow and I want to puke.
6) I have a recurring scary but silly nightmare in which I somehow get pregnant from a bathtub.
7)I am really sad that I only officially get to be a teenager for one more year.
8) Sometimes I love people, dogs, songs, ideas so much, I actually feel pain in my chest and want to cry.
Back Street Boys or NSync?
Did you watch S Club 7?
What was your favorite, Sandlot or Little Rascals?
Little rascals-it was romantical.
What year were you born in?
Did you ever have light up sneakers?
I didn't wear sneakers so much.
What was your favorite thing about recess?
What year was it when you were in 3rd grade?
Cinderella or Snow White?
Did you wake up really early just to watch cartoons on One Saturday morning?
I tried but usually didn't get up that early.
What grade were you in when you learned how to count up to 10 in Spanish?
I think I've always known that. I lived in Rose Park and half our friends/neighbors spoke Spanish.
What was your favorite holiday?
Did you ever try to stay up on Christmas just so you could see santa?
Did you leave milk and cookies or milk and carrots?
Pizza, soda and cards.
What grade did you like the best?
I pretty much enjoyed all grades while I was there. Except 7th and 8th, which I have blocked out.
Ninja Turtle or Power Rangers?
Power Rangers were more my generation, but I love the Turtles.
What Power Ranger were you?
Pink or yellow depending on the day. Pink usually, yellow when I realized every girl wanted to be pink. My elementary school boyfriend was, of course, green.
Did you ever own a chinese jump rope?
What was your favorite thing to eat?
What was your favorite color?
Barney or sesame street?
Sesame Street, though it has some creepy elements. I love Bert and Ernie!
Do you ever miss being a little kid?
I miss elements. I miss seeing magical things and not being freaked out, I miss playing soap opera Barbie with Gigi(well, to a certain extent, I miss Sergio being almost next door, I miss all that is the glorious game of kissing tag.
Do you wish you were older?
Were you a girlie girl or tomboy?
I was pretty girly-I never wore sneakers, I was highly flirtatious. That being said, I only hung out with boys and found girly stuff like mary mack highly boring.
What was your first pets name?
Frankie and Sarge.
Who was your best friend in kindergarten?
Gina and Sergio. But I didn't go to school with either of them. At school? I don't know. Julie?
Are you still friends with the person you were best friends with in the 3rd grade?
I had several best friends in the third grade. Sergio moved that year, so I don't know if he counts but him and Gina yeah. I've talked to Julie a couple times on here. Josh, Bradley...sadly no. I wonder if they'd remember me?
Where did you live when you were 9?
That was the year I moved from Rose Park to Sugar House.
How many times have you switched schools including preschool?
Once in elementary, from Rose Park to Hawthorne.
Have you ever stayed back
What grade are you in now?
Sophomore in college
What was your all time favorite movie?
At the time? The Little Mermaid and Benny and Joon.
Which did you like Are You Afraid Of The Dark or AHH! Real Monsters?
Did you watch Rocko’s Modern Life?
Who was your favorite character in Doug?
The snotty guy who tried to be a ladies man.
Did this quiz make you think about how good it was back then?
Yes. I wonder how guys my age would feel if I initiated kissing tag...
Saturday, July 21, 2007
The first book is The Talisman by Sir Walter Scott. I picked it up because I caught the name of Richard I of England, who is actually on my family tree and therefore super-interesting to me. It is the story (thus far) of Scottish knight Kenneth (played in my head by Ewan McGregor) who is in the Middle East during the crusades. He's on some sort of special mission, but I'm not totally sure what it is yet. None the less, it's had some cool little elements of middle age knight tales and early Catholicism. Kenneth stays with a possibly mad prophet, stumbles into a hidden chapel, and falls in love with/gets the hots for a nun-in-training who I think may be his ex-girlfriend (if I am understanding this correctly). There's also been some thought provoking social elements. Kenneth and a Middle Eastern soldier have a conversation where the soldier cannot understand why Kenneth is deprived of sex until marriage, and Kenneth doesn't understand why the soldier won't drink alcohol. It asks questions like what is the link between mental instability and the supernatural, do sexless societies create confusion between romantic love and worship, is courage synonymous with violence, etc.
The other book I'm reading is at my math professor's suggestion. It is entitled Geometry and the Visual Arts by Dan Pedoe. It has been a little out of my league mathematically-I understand it, but only very slowly-but wicked interesting. (Hmm I sound like a British schoolgirl.) I recently read the chapter on Albrecht Durer. I liked Durer's work anyway, particularly Melancholy, but this book has given me a new appreciation for it. I recommend it if you are into math or art.
I will probably give the priority to Pedoe, even if Scott is due back first at the library. Either way I'll have something to do at the train station!
Wednesday, July 04, 2007
Today I did something really summery-I washed my hair with the hose. It worked very well actually, except that I got some water in my ear and will be shouting all day. Oh well. After fireworks, so will everyone else.
July proves to be a busy month. I have had two friends with birthdays this month and there are 3 more to go. I love getting presents for people. I love having an excuse to shamelessly heap praise upon them and be as mushy as I want and they can't be embarrassed, they just get to sit there and blush.
Todays mini-play-list includes
-The Star-Spangled Banner by Jimi Hendrix
Because it's patriotic in a way that shows how desperately one should fight for the oppressed and dying.
-American Music by Violent Femmes
Because it celebrates the good old American party-makes me think of tailgating, barbeques, summer concerts, arcades, drive-in movies and cruising down the coastline blasting the radio.
-Pink Houses by John Cougar Mellencamp
I love the image of "an interstate runnin through his front yard", something that seems purely US. Also, I grew up on a street coming right off an overpass and have craved living on busy streets ever since.
-America by Simon and Garfunkel
Perfect road trip song for obvious reasons, but also gives a slightly melancholy tone of trying to define who we are and where we're going. It is something universal, yet seems to show up more in American (and not just US) art, music, film and literature.
-In A Big Country by Big Country
Okay so they're Scottish but this song seems to fit the US better in my opinion-Scotland doesn't have deserts one would not expect to grow flowers in for example. Besides the US is a big country that has largely been built on other nations' influences and people and I like it for it's hopeful pioneer spirit. And this is my blog. So there.
Monday, June 18, 2007
I think I am the only one not doing anything. I hate wasting time like this. I need to go to the library and pay bills and do this thing for Susan...Oh thank heaven. The professor said we get to leave on time because she has a meeting or something.
Sorry for complaining. I'm actually really happy, lately. I'm just tired right now. I had a great weekend full of films Jeffrey so generously lent me. My favorite was The Man In The Iron Mask. I love the ultra-heroic idealism in that movie, and John Malkovitch is really a good actor. (I know this is probably duh, but I'm just discovering this.) He should do books on tape in his spare time. I also went to the comedy club where Tony does stand-up. Sergio and I sat right in the front row, which was kind of fun, but I felt bad on the rare occasion things weren't funny. O well.
Holy crap I can leave. Farewell!
Monday, June 11, 2007
Music: "Young Folks"-Peter Bjorn and John
Friday, June 08, 2007
-My older brother and his 15-year-old son, along with their Boston terrier and pug have taken up residence in my little château.
-My friend Kandis got married. Congratulations!!
-Karen, Brandy, and Aurora have all given me incredibly generous late Birthday presents. Thank you!
-I saw something that really is scandalous (and quite disturbing).
-School has started once again for the summer. I'm excited for my math class, I'll post on computers next week.
-Aurora and I once again are going to go for walks with her dog Nina.
-Michael Cera of Arrested Development has a web-show. Watch it! It's pretty funny and I would probably find it twice as if the video didn't have to keep buffering-pretty sure that's my internet connection, though, not the site. (To those of you with would-be virgin ears, they try to censor "swears" but they really suck at it.) Regardless, you have to support alumni from the greatest sitcom of all time. (Yes I did just put it above Seinfeld. You will just have to deal with it.)
-Hard Candy makes excellent makeup, particularly bronzer, nail polish and mascara. Thanks Natalie for stocking me up!
Todays music: Blue Man Group.
Hot guys of the week: Steven Strait; Jensen Ackles; and of course Clark Duke and Michael Cera of Clark and Michael whose comedy has rocked my world.
Sunday, March 18, 2007
Today I finally read the minutes for the book festival meeting. They want me to be chairwoman for the Define-a-thon. Chairwoman! How exciting, and sort of scary.
It occurs to me no one knows what I'm talking about. Maybe I don't say much as nothing is sure yet.
In that vein, (vain? vane? huh.) I have decided to apply for a cashiers job at Rite Aid. I would like a little 10 hour a week job, and I'd only have to ride one bus to get to this one which gives me more confidence about working later in the day. The only thing I'm nervous about is that most people don't want to have to deal with my changing in two months school schedule. But I'm definitely putting school first.
I have been so physically exhausted the last two days. I'm missing my family, though I've been seeing them more lately than at other times. So I'm slightly out of sorts-forgive me.
Friday, March 09, 2007
Monday, February 26, 2007
Sunday, February 18, 2007
This week I also start my work for the Humanities Council. I am very excited, but I do feel slight apprehension. I do not know what exactly they will be depending on me to do, or how often they will want me to commit to doing it. I have come to what I believe is a rather practical decision regarding my time which is that no one activity such as school, volunteering, or work will take more than 25 hours per week. Now this can be adjusted a little such as more school, less volunteering etc, but that way I can keep my priorities straight and my mind off the proverbial fritz.
Also this week, at school they are doing The Vagina Monologues. As a humanities major and a used to wannabe actress, I am curious about this. However I have a bit of a fear of the V word. This is not a fear of feminism or of my own sexuality, but rather of biology and pseudo-intellectualism. Also I have no idea what this play is about, and three hours contemplating vijayjays is time that could surely be spent on better things, no? (Any of you freaks out there, that is a rhetorical question.) Anyway, I will let you know if it was worth the time-anyone want to go with me?
Wednesday, February 14, 2007
I am volunteering for the Utah Humanities Council which is pretty cool too. I am way excited.
Also starting in March I am required to write in a journal-this means more blogs!
Saturday, February 03, 2007
Yeah right-I should be kept away from anything with wheels-up to and including shopping carts.
 You go to a tanning salon.
 You watch The OC and/or Laguna Beach/ The Hills.
[x] You own a cell phone
 You own something designer.
[x] You love going to the mall.
[x] You take your cellphone everywhere.
 You own an iPod and/or an MP3 player.
[ x] You love Starbucks.
[x] You love flip flops.
Total x's : 5/9= 56%
[ x] Red or black is one of your favorite colors.
[x] You have thought about death.
[ ] You wear chains.
[ ] You like heavy metal.
[x] You love/ like Hot Topic.
 You have worn black lipstick
[x] Your hair is dark.
[ x] You dislike preppiness.
[ ] You're an atheist.
[ ] You have/want piercings in unusual places
Total x's :: 5/10= 50%
 You can skateboard.
[x] You wear plaid.
[x] You love/like Converse.
[x] You think you're different.
 You hate BET.
[x]You have moshed.
[x] You have/had/want blue, pink,red,purple, or green hair or highlights.
[ x] You love skater girls/boys.
 You hate pink.
 You hate rich kids sometimes
Total x's :: 6/10= 60%
[x] You love computers.
[ ] You like Star Trek.
 You wear glasses/supposed to
[ ] You get straight A's.
[x] You love reading.
[ ] You are in band.
[ ] You don't care what you look like.
 You have a curfew.
[ x] You always do your homework.
[ ] You never cut school.
Total x's :: 3/10= 30%
[ ]You have black-rimmed glasses.
[ ] You like Thursday.
[ x] You comb your hair in front of your face.
[x] You cry easily.
[x] You like emo music
 you hate being called emo
[x ] You keep a journal/diary.
[ x] You have written a sad poem.
 You have had a sad MySpace layout.
Total x's :: 5/9 = 56%
 You like rap.
[ ] You are in a gang
[ ] You wear Tag.
[ ] You wear rubberbands in your pants.
 you swear a lot
[ ] you have had a freestyling contest.
[x] You have said "fo shizzle".
You have been called a "playa".
[x] You have worn Converse with the tongue flipped out.
Total x's :: 2/9 =22%
 You wear a bandana.
 You love Pokemon, the Ninja Turtles, etc.
 You never walk anywhere.
[ ] You wear slip-on Vans.
[ ] You love/like Norma Jean
[x] You wear band tees.
[ ]People have called you a freak and meant it
You love to "hardcore" dance.
 Your hair has been dyed in more than one color.
Total x's :: 1/9 = 11%