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Friday, October 21, 2005

I am on the verge of a panic attack so it seemed like a good idea to blog. I have recently entered the working world. This is not for resume builders or anything idealistic like that. This is purely for money. Money so that i can go to college. The sad sick irony is this: I now don't have any time to focus on college apps, essays, homework, or anything else. I don't know what to do!!! School is more impoprtant, but how will I pay for it without the job??? Even if i were to quit and focus on scholarship-finding I'd need more money. Plus it's only been a week, if i quit now it will just be another stupid thing i just couldn't get thru or whatever. I HATE money. Because no matter how much you have, you need more. All the money i'll make will go straight into savings anyway. I feel like I am being smothered by a giant alarm clock. I just need to scream!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!


mama bear said...

So scream....It'll make you feel alittle better and then you can get on with the rest of it

amie-j said...

How are you doing with the job, now that it's been a few days?

How is school?

When I become ready to scream, I find that the best thing to do is to figure out all of the things that are bothering me, and write them down. Then break it down into what can be done about each thing. If nothing can be done, I choose to accept it and move on. If I have some control, I take action right away. I find that letting things weigh on me makes them seem much larger than they actually are.